Out of Control
by Sheye Blaze
Confusion once again reigns
supreme in my mind.
What was that about?
Is there still love there?
Or was it just one
of "those" things?
Convenience, timing
mixed in to create it?
It became obvious that
you are hurt as well
You made so many assumptions
that were not true
There was no grand experiment
It was you that I was crying about
It was you that hurt me so
It is you that invades my thoughts all day
Do you trust me enough for me to lay it on the line
Or will you once again rebuff me for pushing
Confusing me because as I have now found
You did want those things and
To some degree expected them
Expectations need to voiced,
clarified, solidified
without that I won't ever
live up to them
Just because you don't control it,
doesn't mean that I do
It makes me feel
so small, like a
child, to be
so out of
control
every where that
you are
concerned
