Dark & Grey
by Sheye Blaze
03/24/1999
Dark and grey - full to the point of bursting
An yet no rain comes.
You can feel the natural tension as we wait.
And still it only builds.
A few drops fall.
Not the grand shower releasing the water & tension.
Just a tease to raise the tension even higher.
My shoulders and head ache until I want to scream.
Even when I think that I can stand no more,
The rain does not come.
There are no answers for me, yet.
Only more questions and hints of what the future may hold.
My heart and mind are a mass of confusion
Nausea hits and I am afraid that the only release will be through pain.
I need answers and more energy
To bounce back and continue with my life
But reinforcement does not seem to be forthcoming.
It appears that my faith, beliefs and love
Are to tbe tested through hard trial and pain.
Can I live up to my own ideals?
Will my very foundations of my life be shaken?
I can not allow this to jade me.
I must remain true to myself and my ideals.
Or will fate change my deals and
Indeed the very me that I think that I am
Through sheer dint of will and force of nature
