Waking Nightmare
by Sheye Blaze
03/23/1999
Darkness is rising,
As pain surrounds me.
Confusion clouds my mind.
Where am I, who am I, what am I now?
Am I that different from just a year before?
There is love in my heart,
But am I in love? Love to last forever. Love to last forever?
Living life to love again and again.
Living life in vivid color and dreaming vibrantly.
Confusion starts to lift as I remember,
To take the chances and never regret the choices.
Yet, still there is clouding confusion and pain in my heart.
I will know when I know.
Only my conscience can be my guide.
I must not lie and I must not settle. In all things honesty must be my rule.
How do I love? What are the limits within my heart?
Have I found the only true love that I'll ever have?
Or am I only limiting myself -- too afraid to be hurt.
Too afraid to live life as I need?
Too afraid to admit I will not be in love forever?
Or too afraid to admit that I will?
What fear holds me back?
Stealing the momentum and decisiveness which I normally know.
The waiting is hard.
I want to run our and scream and yell
And force the decision to come.
And, yet, still I wait.
My heart is not to rushed and
Neither is fate.
