The Wrong Movie
by Sheye Blaze
I am drowning in sound and light.
Sensation overload is dulling my sense of touch and feeling.
I have hatred in my heart for everything
that doesn't sound or feel right.
I need to feed
I need the energy of others pouring
loud music, anger, love
I saw anger last night
It created the desire in me to feed
I want others emotions
They make me feel alive
I've laid dormant
For too many months, too many years
I need to feel, I need to be
I need to live and to die
Without fear or regret
I want to leave behind the shackles
That have held me where I am at
I want to find....
Something more than I am
I want to SCREAM
I want to let go the control
of my issues, my neurosis
I want to break down
I want to no longer be the responsible one
I want.
I want.
I want.
And in the end
I will keep the rigid control
In the end
I will do what I know is right
